Today I went on a six mile run in Carlinville and felt great. A lot of things were starting to weigh me down, and this run was just what I needed. No iPod left me to my own thoughts. After I was finished I sat outside on the picnic table and cooled down. I thought about how I want a girl that would run with me, and then sit there and be content feeling what it is to live. Listening to the sounds all around, looking at the darkening sky, and feeling close to someone else without having to speak. I have had a deeper connection with a girl that liked to run, but we are just friends. I have a hard time deciding if I am better off having a friend that is so great, or unfortunate because the two of us will never be more. It's tough to think that the I have never felt the same way with another girl. We went to Apple Bees last night after Vacation Bible School was over. We sat at a booth and just talked about whatever. She would laugh and smile, and I would think about how those are the things that attract me to her. She gets goofy and her laugh is funny. I envy the guys she dates. I drove her back to her house and before she got out of my car  I felt like you do when dropping off a date, and there was brief moment when it seemed like we were both feeling the same thing, like it was time for a hug or something else. She left my car and I went home. Maybe I'm just getting my hopes up. I know I am. I have to find some other girl so I don't think about her. In a way it feels like when we run together and she gets a few paces in front of me, I work harder to catch up to her, but it always seems that she's either behind me or in front of me, never side by side. Will we ever be in sync?   
 

 

Tags: writer's block
Current Location: Dorm room
Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: Remy Zero